the good and the bad

I'm not your punching bag, stop treating me like I am.
Sometimes I forget you exist. That scares me.
I don't know that I want to go, I don't really like most of you.
Why are you trying to get involved in our personal lives?
I've given you a chance. I've given you lots of chances. I don't like you.
You don't deserve it. I do.

(If you care to know who these people are and you know me well enough, you know whether or not you should ask.)


I like helping people.
I appreciate people who make me a better individual, physically, mentally and emotionally. (yes, that means YOU for giving me the motivation to start what is going to be a great thing) :)
I'm okay with college in California, but I think I'm feeling the East coast for grad school.
I'm excited to see where life takes me.
This summer is going to be fucking incredible.

Another

Carrie said she thinks I'm going to save the world.
I'm excited to wreak havoc this summer.
Life is pretty damn good, it's all about your attitude.

Today

Today I registered to vote.
Today I watched my friends receive thousands of dollars in scholarships.
Today I supported my friend becoming an Eagle Scout.

Today was a really, Really good day.

hope.

cupping hope in my hands like water
it slowly seeps through

Encouragement (courtesy of Mother Teresa)

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.
Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.
Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten.
Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give your best anyway.

Operation: Summer to end all Summers

COMMENCE!

unfiltered

do I actually believe someone hears me when I pray? do I even pray ot someone? or do I just think in a way that's more 3rd person?

fate?

is fate something that exists from the beginning to the end?

or is it just the inevitability of everything that unfolds?

does it exist at all?

how

why do bad things happen to good people

WHY

how can such a perfect god screw up so badly

if he's so all-knowing

and so merciful

and so loving

why the hell does he let people suffer the way they do? no, i'm not asking for bliss. but starving children?

"Deep doubts, deep wisdom; small doubts, little wisdom."

My cell phone is dead, I don't go to school anymore, and I avoid facebook chat as much as possible. Why, yes, I have fallen off the face of the Earth. It's kind of nice.

what's wrong with me?

reach out to a speck of dust suspended in the air; it floats just out of reach.

a solid Friday night

life-threatening wrong turns, dancing all out, awkwardly seducing people at red lights, evangelists, and belly dancing. (chelsea, you would have loved chris.)