Prayer

Dear God,

I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.

I'm lost.
I'm confused.

I don't know.

Help.
What do I do?
Where do I go?

I don't know.

I'm running in circles, desperate for a foothold.
Looking for answers.

I don't know.
But you know.

I can't.
I can't without you.

Your strength, for I am weak.
Your will, for I am fickle.
Your heart, for mine is hard.
Your peace, for mine is temporary.
Your path, for mine is lost.
Your love, for mine is empty.
Your promise, for mine is insincere.

I don't know.

"Break me."
But I'm too afriad.

Do I really mean it?
"Give me the heart to ask for the heart."

And when you pray, do not keep babbling on like pagans for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. (Matthew 6:7,8 NIV)

I don't know.
But you know.

I can't.
But you can.

I ask again.
But not really again.
I mean it for the first time.

Not me, but you.