They don't tell you it's hard to make friends. They don't tell you that you feel lonely and small and not good enough. They don't tell you that hardly anyone gives a fuck about whether you succeed or fail and those that do are rarely on your side. They're not your allies, they're your competition -- people who want you gone because then they have one less person to worry about. It's just so hard. I've been here almost 15 weeks and I still don't know who I am or where I'm going. Things are slowly getting better, but it's wearing on me. It's wearing on all of us. Please help me find the strength I need to keep on keeping on. Please help me thrive here. Please help me get involved. Please help me find friends. Real, true, best friends. Please help me find my place and be happy.