Pearls before Swine

I said I hate small talk, but now that I think about it, that's not entirely true. I love small talk, it can be funny, amusing, and entertaining. But at the same time it can also be superficial, boring, and awkward. Small talk can be great depending on the situation. But I love deep conversation, the kind that is mind boggling, meaningful, challenging, interesting, the kind of conversation that bonds people together in a way that small talk never could. Times like last night, standing with a group that makes me feel like I don't belong, making awkward, stupid, pointless small talk, annoy me to no end. For the longest time I felt like it was my fault that the conversation sucked so much, I blamed myself for being so shy and uncomfortable. But today I realized that if they think I'm boring or awkward, the joke's on them, because I'll gladly bet that I can have a far more interesting conversation than they could ever have anytime, anyplace. So, yeah, maybe I'm not the best conversationalist when it comes to small talk, but then again, maybe they're just not worth my time.