it just clicked

I don't care about being original
or unique
or individual
looking back, how foolish of me was it to desire irreplaceability?
how vain
how irrelevant

who cares if I like music that people have heard of
who cares if I don't?
all the effort to make ourselves different, more obscure, to set ourselves apart from others.
who cares?

I say with truth, for the first time
not I.

I don't want to become anything that isn't true to my innmost essence. I want to become myself, no matter how out there or mainstream or shy or bold or weird or fickle or accomplished that person is. I want nothing more than to grow and create myself as I see fit.