I almost want to go to school and not talk to people from home. I need a break from you guys, not because I don't love you but because I need to immerse myself in the people there and learn to love them. It'd be so much easier to just put things on hold for a few months, and pick back up at Christmas like we haven't been apart. No harm, no foul. No expectations, no disappointment, no hurt feelings. I'm horrible at keeping in contact as is; I don't know how I'm supposed to do it as I'm trying to adjust to a whole new life.