Blinders please?

I hate that I care so much about what you think of me. I was sitting in bed trying to study and I couldn't stop thinking about how much I annoy myself for putting so much emphasis on your opinions. Yes, you're entitled to them and yes, I do value them, but it's getting ridiculous. I started to think about reasons I shouldn't value your opinion. I started to degrade you in my mind in hopes of degrading the worth I've give your thoughts. And then I realized something; you're not the one at fault. It's not that your opinions aren't good enough; it's that I rely on them too much. The realization that I measure myself by others isn't a new one, but I need to figure it out apart from you completely.